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2012-01-26T13:17:00.001-08:00

It didn't use to be this way. I used to have loads ofconfidence but that has all seemingly evaporated. I know I was much moreconfident at one point because I was much more comfortable around people. Ieven did a few TV interviews and had no problem talking to people or making newfriends which apparently is a skill that fades away very quickly. I don’t wantto come across as a nostalgic moaning person writhing in my own self-pity so I won’tkeep going on about what was, this is just to show I have got a decent systemrestore point. Next post is why and how I lost my confidence.

Bert out.

2012

2012-01-16T10:29:00.000-08:00

So here I am, still lingering like a bad smell or a bubbleunder newly stuck up wall paper. Sorry I'm not my cheery self but my confidenceand optimism with it went away ages ago. It’s still there somewhere, in afiling cabinet in the darkest recesses of my mind. It didn't vanish like a lightswitch,just sort of faded and then pop it was gone. My mission for this year is tofind it. I know why it went away, I think and I know what to try and do to fixit. However doing so might be the toughest thing I will ever do because at theend of the day it's all in the jumbled up mess that is my psyche. I did havelots of confidence but because of circumstances I cannot control I have lostaccess to opportunities to exercises my confidence. I need to slowly startdoing small things which require little confidence and build it up. Hopefully Iwill start living more then. So in my next few posts I will cover why myconfidence went away, what I plan to do about it and my future goals. MaybeI'll get some suggestions which might help.

Later, Bert.

Berts Mind

Before

2012